4am Morning

Photo: 4am is too early to be awake! #canadianslovehockey #WeAreWinter #goforgold #gocanadago

It’s Canada’s game. Even if it is at 4AM.


Thankful Thursday: February 20th

This is a week in which I have been sick and tired. But as always, there has to be something that I am thankful for right? Let’s find out:

  • Community group – I love feeling connected to a group of people who I probably wouldn’t be connected to other wise. And I love hanging out with them every week. And I love going to church and knowing people, and being connected to people.
  • Reconnecting – sometimes time gets away from me and before I know it, it has been so long since I’ve seen something. I had the chance to reconnect with a friend this past week and it was good. It was also just good to get out of my normal routine, out of my own place, and talk!
  • Starbucks – when I am sick and tired, Starbucks always makes me feel better. I wish it was less expensive!  (I also may have had 3 Starbucks this week…)

What are you thankful for this week?

It’s the Little Things

Little things make all the difference, don’t they?

Little compliments bring a smile to a face.

Little improvements make you feel better.

Little steps toward your future feel like progress.

But what about the other way?

Little white lies, little compromises, little mistakes. They make all the difference too.

In church on Sunday we were talking about Samson and the little things he does that causes big problems for him. And it got me thinking, what little things do I do that could cause me big problems?

Because we all do it. We all justify some things, we say it’s okay, not that big of a deal, it doesn’t mean anything.

But it does, doesn’t it?

Samson touches a dead lion, violating a vow he had made, and it doesn’t seem like a big deal. It’s just a dead body.

But it’s a step away. Away from God. Away from God’s plan.

And eventually all the little steps you take away from God turn into one large leap. And eventually it seems insurmountable.

So maybe it’s not worth it.

Maybe telling that small lie isn’t worth getting away with something. Because eventually you will feel free to lie again and to lie bigger.

Maybe uttering that curse word isn’t worth looking cool to peers. Because that small compromise could lead to more compromises. It could lead to other things you never thought you’d do to look good to your friends.

What are the little things I have been willing to compromise that I shouldn’t?

I have been willing to compromise a lot to fit in with my friends. I think I see it clearly now when I see some friends in completely different places because they took all the little steps. I see it in them, and don’t want it in myself. I don’t want to make those compromises.

I have been willing to compromise a lot for my own entertainment. Maybe it doesn’t seem like a big deal but I enjoy watching TV (and watch way too much of it), I enjoy reading, I enjoy playing on my phone, and communicating with people. But I compromise for that entertainment. I spend less time with God than I should because I would rather watch TV. I let go of good habits in favor of bad ones.

What are the little things you have been willing to compromise?

The good news is that God as a big amount of grace.

And that small steps in the right direction make a big difference too.

Thankful Thursday: February 13

What a week since my last Thankful Thursday post. It’s been busy, it’s been entertaining, it’s been good. Here are some things I am thankful for:

  • Olympics – I love the olympics. There is something about all these countries coming together and competing. Something about them celebrating together (at least in some sports), cheering people on, helping each other out. It also doesn’t hurt that Canada is doing really well! I can be prideful sometimes
  • Long weekends – BC introduced a new holiday this year: Family Day. I didn’t spend that much time with my family – BUT it was great to have a day off, relax, catch up on things
  • Reading – some how it has been a long time since I have sat down and read a book. I think because I got a puppy and felt like I had to entertain her all the time. But I sat down and I read a book this week. It was glorious to get lost in other people’s stories.
  • Church – Church is often so refreshing, and this was one of those weeks. The worship was amazing and the sermon was challenging. And I felt connected to people there.

What are you thankful for this week?

Best Friends Forever

Do you remember your high school best friend? Did you promise to be best friends forever? Did it last?

I had a high school best friend. We were inseparable. We talked, laughed, dreamed together. We planned our lives together. We planned our future weddings, planning to be each others maid of honor. We planned to be aunts to each others kids. We planned to travel the world.

We planned forever.

And then high school ended. And when friendship was convenient, when we saw each other at school every day, it was great. But we left high school behind. Friendship required work. And soon we grew apart.

We were in different places we said. We were going different directions. Forever ended.

Sometimes I wonder if forever really exists.
No, I’m not really that cynical. But it’s in the back of my head.What is forever?

While I was in Kansas I thought I lost my friends at home. There was a communication failure between us. We were in different places, going different directions.

Now that I am home, I am still not sure where we are going. If we are heading towards forever or away from it. People change in 2.5 years. And sometimes that change is too much to overcome. I hope we can bridge the gap. But I am not confident that we will.

Then there’s the other side. I made great friends in Kansas. Some of the best. We laughed and cried together. We grew up together.

And then I left. And they stayed. And where does that leave us?

Because distance is hard. It changes things. It challenges forever.

But love can survive everything right? Friendship, if it is true friendship, can survive it all.

That is the hope I hold on to.

Forever exists.