Thankful Thursday: May 29

This week I am thankful for:

 

  • Weddings: I love weddings. I love getting dressed up. I love seeing two people in love. I love seeing people promise their lives to each other.
  • Rainy Days: I actually hate the rain. I like sun. I like warmth. But this weekend it rained and I had to walk my puppy and so I did it in the rain. And we explored and got soaking wet. But it was actually quite fun.
  • Days off: I got a day off for the worst possible reason this week (teacher strike). And I lost money (which sucks) but I had a day off when I desperately needed it. I feel much more refreshed and ready for the rest of the week now!

 

What are you thankful for this week?

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I am a Social Worker

I never thought I would fall into something like I did social work and know it was where I was meant to be.

You see first I went to a large public university studying psychology.

And then it just didn’t work. It has seemed good at first. But then the more I learned, the more I realized this wasn’t exactly what I wanted to to.

After all, what does one do with a Bachelor’s Degree in Psychology?

So then I searched for something else.

And along came social work.

When I eventually got into a social work program (in Kansas of course) I learned so much.

And the more I learned the more I knew.

I fell in love.

Everything I learned I wanted to learn more.

The more I learned the more passionate I became.

The more passionate I became, the more I knew it was where I belonged.

I am a social worker.

I am still discovering where I want to go in that. What field I want to work in.

The more I think about it I know I want to work with children who have been victims of abuse and neglect.

When I tell people this their first response is “oh, that is a hard field”.

It happens to be a pet peeve of mine.

Because I know it’s a hard field. I know it will be difficult and emotional. I know I will see horrible things. So you don’t need to tell me.

I can handle it. I know what I’m doing. And I know what I’m getting myself into.

I am a social worker.

One Year Later

Those are from one year ago. When I walked across a stage and received my diploma. When I finally became a graduate.

It has been quite the year.

I graduated.

I moved back home.

I got a license to practice social work.

I spent 3 months unemployed.

I was employed!

My job has been far from ideal, but I have learned a lot. About myself, about how the “real world” really works, about children and development, about special needs.

I’ve missed Kansas more than I thought I would. I miss the people, the relationships I made with some amazing women, and I miss who I was there.

I’m still figuring out who I am here. I am still figuring out my relationships here, where I fit in here, where I am supposed to be here.

I wonder what the next year will hold?

Thankful Thursday: May 15

This week I am thankful for:

 

  • Sunny Days because who doesn’t love the sun? Especially on half days when I can enjoy it!
  • McDonald’s Dollar Days because I love a $1 medium vanilla ice coffee. And I can easily pretend I’m not spending a lot of money cause they are only $1…even though I am…
  • Long Weekends it hasn’t even started and I am already looking forward to it! More days to sleep in for me!!
  • Nail Polish because when summer is here it is fun to do your toes and fingers and feel summery.
  • Mother’s Day mom’s deserve to be celebrated! And I have a wonderful mom to celebrate. I had a fun weekend with my mom and dinner with my grandma and aunts and uncles. I love you mom!

 

What are you thankful for this week?

Love at First Sight

I have never been in love.

But I’m not sure I believe in love at first sight. I don’t think you can love someone you don’t know.

I believe that something draws you to a person.

Maybe their looks. Maybe their personality. Maybe one thing they say. It draws you to them and love can grow.

All this got me to thinking:

What first drew you to God? What sucked you in? What made you look?

For me it was His grace.

Grace is an amazing thing.

It’s forgiveness.

It’s love.

It’s unending.

It’s unconditional.

To me, it’s incomprehensible. How can God offer me grace? When I sin, when I make mistakes, when the same thing happens over and over again.

But God does offer grace. Every time.

It’s amazing!

I am an Introvert

My uncle told me the other day “You’re shy like your dad”

By which he meant not shy at all.

My dad is an extrovert. He enjoys hanging out with people. He can make conversations with anyone about anything. He can find something in common with anyone. He can sell anyone anything.

And that is not me.

It surprises me how many people think I’m outgoing.

Because I’m not.

I’m the girl who would rather spend her Friday night curled up with a good book then go out for drinks.

I’m the girl who avoids large groups as much as possible or talk myself into going because it’s the right thing to do.

I am an introvert.

I used to think something was wrong with me, that is was a flaw. But now I know better. It’s just the way I am. I like to be alone. Sometimes people exhaust me. Sometimes I don’t want to be social. But it’s okay. It’s me.

I need alone time. That is when I am most relaxed and at ease.

But I love people. I love my friends. I don’t have a lot of friends, I have never felt like I needed a lot of friends, but I love the ones I’ve got.

I don’t need to go out every night, much to my parents confusion. Why don’t you go out more? Why don’t you have a social life? They ask. And the answer is it is exhausting to go out. I need me time sometimes.

Being an introvert is different than being shy.

I am slow to warm up to people, to open up to people. But once I know you, I can seem outgoing. I can laugh and joke and have fun. I can be bubbly and silly. I can have long and wonderful conversations. But it takes time.

I am an introvert.

Jesus: I AM

Truly, truly I say to you, before Abraham was, I AM. (John 8:58)

 

This always seemed like an abstract statement to me. Jesus says “I am”. But what does that really mean? Who is “I am”? And how in the world is that a name?

Then I heard a sermon on it. A very powerful, eye opening sermon.

Jesus is God.

I know, not exactly a grand revelation, but sometimes you just get hit by the truth you’ve always known.

Jesus is God. I am. Past, present, and future. He exists outside of time and space. He needs nothing to survive.

Jesus is I am.