Sometimes it’s a slow change. A gradual shift. So slow it is not evident until it is there, and it has changed.
If you’ve read this blog, you know how I’ve been feeling. Lost, confused, overwhelmed, stressed.
But a shift has happened in the last few weeks.
A shift from negativity to positivity. A shift from feeling lost to feeling found.
And I know what’s changed. And it’s not me, it’s not my work product, or my knowledge.
A few weeks ago some people told me they were praying for me. I opened up to some people (outside of this blog) about how I was feeling. And I prayed for myself.
And prayer changes things.
The job didn’t suddenly change. The people are still the same, with the same challenges. There is still more work to do than time to do it. I am still learning the job and what to do with it.
But I’ve changed.
I’ve been less negative. I’ve been more confident. I’ve been at peace with the decision I made to take this position.
And with peace comes a lot of other things. I sleep at night. I am happier. I am not mentally drained every day (most of the time).
Prayer made a shift in my mind. In my thoughts. In my perspective.
I wrote once that without God I couldn’t do this job. And that is true.
This job, more than anything else in my life, is teaching me of my daily reliance on God. Years ago I came to a place where I knew I needed God in my life. But the day to day need, the day to day dependence on Him was slow to come.
But now I see it. Now I see it every single day.
When I am weak, God is strong. When I am lost, God will guide me. When I have no answers, God is wise.
Prayer. My own. Other people’s. It makes a difference.
It shifted my perspective.
If you’ve been praying for me, thank you. It means the world to me.
If you need prayer, ask. Here or with someone else you know. Prayer means something.
God is good. God is there. God is here.