Deep breathe in.
And let it out slowly.
That’s how it feels lately. Like a deep breath being let out at last. And with it, the stress and worry and hardships are being let out too.
I’ve learned that I write when I’m in turmoil. When my thoughts are stuck in my head. When I’m overwhelmed. And stressed. And losing control.
But that is fading now.
I am finally feeling settled.
It happened slowly. Gradually. Without even realizing it.
My confidence grew. My skills grew.
My stress declined.
I can’t tell you what exactly changed. I can’t identify the things that are different in me now than they were a few months ago.
But I feel settled. I feel secure.
I feel like I’ll survive.
The job is still the job. It’s still stressful. It’s still overwhelming. There is still so much that I don’t know.
But the settled feeling has come over me.
And it feels good.
And I hope that it lasts.
Deep breath out.